Am I Losing It?


It’s been two days. Two freaking days.

Summer has a way of killing me. It’s killing my thoughts. I don’t have a single thing to want to talk about. I wanted to talk about the elections but I want to do it in a day where I feel sane. I don’t feel sane. Well, just a part of me is sane. While I was still back in school, I witnessed and heard lots of issues. I felt frustration, depression, confusion, sadness, happiness. Meanwhile, the past few weeks I’ve only felt frustration and happiness.

Frustrated because I can’t think of any topic. Seriously, I didn’t even have any idea how to continue with the stories I’m writing. I didn’t have any idea what’s going to happen next. I didn’t have any idea how to begin this new chapter. I didn’t have any idea how to write these seldom thoughts that come into my head.

Happiness because my playlist in my phone has album artworks. I just love looking at my music in my phone with album artworks.

One day, I finally decided to continue watching the long overdue Korean drama, 49 Days. I’m already at episode fifteen. After watching ten episodes, I was back with brainstorming. Thoughts are just flooding inside, and so I’m excited. Experiencing a very tear-jerking drama triggered lots of thoughts and ideas in me. Experiences are indeed a necessity for me now as I write three different stories one at a time. I can’t just rely solely on my imagination.

Now, I’m back at Abernon Town of Safari Kingdom in my Ubiquitous Series. I’ve finally returned to the halls of FHS in Teen Tales. And I’m back at the Great Hall of Safari Kingdom in Destiny Trilogy. (I’m editing the last one.) It’s good to be back in these worlds. It feels good.

I’m found in my “writing” world. I hope I’m not going to lose it again in the coming days.

2 thoughts on “Am I Losing It?

  1. I wouldn’t worry about losing it. Worries are where are problems begin in the first place because that just builds up anxiety that eventually stunts are creative flow. Just go along with whatever happens with the writing and try not to worry about whether or not you’re going to lose it.

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