I want to feel numb right, now. I wish there was something I could take to make me numb and put all this pain away. I just want to shut my mind off for a while, maybe for days. I just want to quit thinking. I just want to stop from everything. I’ve felt and thought of these things many times before but it’s only now that I want these things so bad.
I need an anchor, definitely. Someone not me because I’m a sinking ship.
How can I be my own anchor when I’m a sinking ship?