I knew it was too good to be true. How can I let myself believe I’m fine? Have I forgotten that what I have is incurable?  I thought that having a lot of school work would keep me occupied. I thought my mind wouldn’t be wandering off to places I’ve already been. But I feel empty again. I want to stop time so I could spare myself of the guilt of wasting it in my loneliness and despair. I want to bury myself in the ground like every other dead man who’s said goodbye to this lonely world. I want to be struck by disaster of any form so I can be excused from life and all of my supposed responsibilities. My knee is sore and all I have is this rope I’d like to hang myself with.


One thought on “Relapse

  1. I know what you’re feeling as I’ve felt the same before. It’s heartbreaking and it’s something that can actually bring you down. Always keep in mind that we all experience hardships in life. It’s all natural. Break free from that by looking at the brighter side of life. Stay, life is actually beautiful! Just open your eyes and live the moment.


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